Archive for September, 2007

30
Sep
07

150.2 with 144.2 lost

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Categories: body image
I clocked in at 150.2 pounds this morning. I seriously thought I hit a plateau, but I was pleasantly surprised at the scale. I even called it a liar after it read my new weight. Cleared the numbers, stepped on it again, and it confirmed my weight 3 times in a row. I won’t argue with that.

I’ve been continuing to read about the surgery that I want to get in the near future. My goal weight is 140, and I was speaking to a friend of mine and he explained to me that they may possibly cut 20+ pounds of skin off of me. Woah. This is all true, and I may be a small pint at the end of all this, but that just makes it even more exciting.

10.2 more pounds to go to reach goal!!!!

Only 3 more until I can call myself HALF of where I started. E-freakn-citing. I’m going to skip around today, I already noticed.

I told my ex my new weight, and from under the sheet he put his thumbs up to me. I can tell he’s already tired of hearing the pound down morning prance around, but that’s too damn bad. He should care. And if he doesn’t, I don’t really care. Because I care about my own success and this last 10 is going to be tough to lose. Every pound is going to get a praise.

I signed up for a “Thanks Giving Ten” challenge on Calorie count. 10 pounds by thanks giving? Goal by thanks giving? Oh heck yes. We’ll see if I can push my diet that far, but if I can, by golly I’ll be one happy camper. I’m going to CA to visit friends and family around that time. Taking a trip to Knotts Berry Farm and I’m going to feel so tiny in those rollercoaster seats. OMG I’ve gone before and had to be escored off a ride because the lap bar didn’t go down. Most embarrassing moment ever. But I bet I can fit my ass in those kiddy rides now. I’m going on everything. I don’t care who it’s made for.

Yay! Time to skip around the house again.

24
Sep
07

Weight loss and excess skin removal. I can’t wait!

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Categories: body image
This weekend I took a decent amount of time to look further into this excess skin removal plastic surgery that I am SO looking forward to. Just looking at the results people have achieved push me and motivate me more and more to live my life to it’s fullest and to take charge of getting what I want. Everything from daily tasks to my future career. Now that dieting is coming to a near, I want to focus on my final out come. My brand new body! A tummy tuck, arm lift, breast lift. Ah! Exciting.

I really wish there were more users on the internet with a blog about this surgery. I want to hear inside information. I want to meet people in person who have had their excess skin removed. I want to touch their scars and understand everything there is to understand about it. Talk to them about how they feel and how they felt and how it’s changed their life.

This you will all hear from me. I want to get a free consultation from a plastic sergyn and then I’ll be able to see how much money I will need to save. THEN I’ll post all my lovely flabs up for you all to see, and hopefully gather 5K from donations. I have a feeling I’ll at least need that to start, and then I can finance the rest. I have $65 dollars in donations so far. A glimmer of hope. I’m pushing myself and my career as hard as I can right now, and if I don’t make the 5K in donations, I’ll push and shove my way through life to get this. Because afterall, I do deserve it.

14
Sep
07

Weight Loss as of Today: 139 pounds

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Categories: Stats

It’s been 14 months since I started my weight loss journey, and I have currently lost 139 pounds. My next goal is to lose 8 more pounds, which will put me at a total loss of 147 pounds. That is exactly HALF of my original starting weight (294 pounds). My milestone to be half of who I was.

Becoming half is unlike anything most people will get to experience. A weight is literally lifted off your shoulders, and you feel free as can be. A feeling of venerability often times makes you feel smaller than you are. Life is always put back into perspective when you are standing next to that girl who is 2 inches taller and 20 pounds lighter than you.

No matter what weight you achieve, there will always be someone out there you feel looks better than you. So take all your own perspectives with a grain of salt, as those you are jealous of, are jealous of someone else too.

Current Stats:

Age – 23

BMI – 26.7

Weight – 155.4

Jean Size – 8W

Shirt Size – M/L

Shoe Size – 8 1/2 – 9

09
Sep
07

Excess Skin – Reconstructive Surgery

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Categories: body image

It’s getting to the point where my body is so deflated I am searching for a way re-constructive surgery can be possible for me. I am 23 years old, and have yet to see my body look like that of a woman. Before it was over stuffed, and now it is deflated.

I watch all these shows where guests get their surgery, and I nearly cry because I wish it was me. Most of the time, those guests have had the weight loss surgery, but I have pushed through the barriers and did this without pills, surgery, or anyone holding my hand. I’m as much of a trooper as they come.

I wake up in the morning and dread getting out of bed. Not because I dont want to go to work, but because I dont want to disrobe to get in the shower. Seeing my body naked, touching my loose skin, and feeling my body shift with every move, makes me break inside. It’s a constant reminder of my past, and I so badly want to break away from those memories.

I understand that if/when I do get surgery, I will have scars. Healing scars. Pulling me back together, making me whole for once.

I just pray that someone can grant me my 1 wish. I am not wishing to wake up thin, I am not wishing to have it easy, all I wish is to feel whole. To feel like a woman.